Tuesday, October 24, 2006
I still feel so stressed out. Grabe. Everybody is busy preparing for the sembreak. Ako? Ha. I'm busy cracking my brain for the special exams for the Press Conference participants. Harsh. Dapat nag-eenjoy ako ngayon and worry-free. Pero hinde eh. I am bothered by Physics, as always. I sacrificed kase two experiments included in the Performance which is thirty percent. Why? I need the signature for my Clearance. Yeah. Up to now hindi pa rin complete clearance ko! Haha. Ang lufet. I would be getting an 84 on my card. Shit. And for what? I didn't bring home any eggs. I mean bacons. Wala naman akong napalanunan. Mga artist talaga mga cartoonist kong nakalaban. Bakit nga ba magagaling ang mga guys sa cartooning? I was like the only girl there. I mean konti lang kame. Napapagitnaan ako ng mga guys. Mga punkista-looking guys. You know. The kinda ragged look. Hindi na rin naman ako umasa that I'll be going up the stage and receive an award. Their just too good. And maybe cartooning is not my forte. Haha. I'm too beautiful for that. I'm the most kikay and decent, innocent-looking girl dun. Haha. Actually, hindi lang ako ang hindi nakaakyat. All of us nga eh! Except for Jennifer who joined Copyreading in English. Kasama siya sa Top 10 and got the 10th place. At least my representative ang St. Paul Bocaue. Mind you, St. Paul San Rafael went to the regionals. At least, Paulinian. Go St. Paul. Puro at least na lang. At least I enjoyed our overnight sa school kung saan eh 3:30am na kami natulog dahil we were busy laughing at Guru Joe's answers on our out-of-nowhere questions. Hindi na nga kami nagwork sa school paper eh. Speaking of the school paper, yun ang nakaabot sa Regionals. Haha. Our adviser said it could top the regionals and go for the Nationals. Baka kailangan nga ng kasama nung paper. I'd volunteer. Haha.
Birthday ni Theo!
Yeah! Nag-enjoy talaga ako dun sa Rock Castle. Haha. I even sang and won five hundred pesos. Saya-saya. Ang kinanta ko Mata by Mojofly. Haha. That is my first ever performance on stage with lots of people. Just smile and wave and sing. Dapat duet with Moses kaso gusto solo. Well, good thing nagsolo ako kase kung dalawa eh di nahati pa yung five hundred. Haha! Gahaman! I really had fun. Ang galing pa nung band that was hired by Theo. The Silence pangalan nila. They're really good. Ano kaya someday maging ganun ako? Haha. Asa.
Wala na kong masulat. I'll just rejoice dahil walang pasok ngayon. I'll be somber for magrereview ako later. Sigh.
roshner@1:14 AM
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Tuesday, October 17, 2006
How is Bisaya language ba? Sabi ni Vinks ganun na daw ako!WAAH! Hindi ah.. I am so not like that. Remember my last post? About diction probs? Eto na yun. Waah. Curse you Utakgago. My friends do laugh at me and at my tongue. I don't know what the hell is the problem with me. Kaasar talaga. What is wrong with "maglakad"?My stress daw is on "la". And I deny it beause hindi naman talaga totoo. And when I say English, EHnglish daw. Hay ewan ko. But as far as I am concerned, I am still a normal person having a normal tongue an a normal genuine Filipino language and diction.
Hmm.. what's with Bisaya language that makes us laugh at it whenever maids speak. Example na lang sa phone. " Tumawag si Cicil." It's supposed to be Cecille. Oh well. Most of the time we make fun of their language or the way they speak and everything. People on TV imitate them and by just doing it some fall, clutch their stomachs and laugh. Ano nga ba kase ang meron doon? But if you come to think of it, pag tayo naman ang napunta sa land nila or sa place nila, they would be the one laughing at us kase nga kakaiba tayong mga Tagalog magsalita. Maybe this causes diversity in the Philippines. I mean, parang ang redundant na niya. Archipelago na nga tayo, separated by waters, then sa language nahati pa into dialects. Over thirty ba? I mean, how are we unified? Kaya nagkakagulo bansa eh. Buti pa China. Mandarin. Tayo ang dami eh. Hay. Siguro kailangan nga English. So we can understand, not only kapwa Filipinos but also other aliens.
Grabe. Kung sansan na napunta tong post na to. It all started naman with my diction prob. Hay nako. Try to call me and tell if meron nga. Haha.
Famous lines:
1. Mcdo po.
2. Panyo ko.
3. Nako.
4. Bag ko.
5. Panyo mo.
6. Ano po?
Puro 'o' right? Try to read it and express the 'o' as in 'o'. Matatawa na lang kayo. Hahaha. Dapat daw kase medyo 'u' ung bigkas niya. Ah well. Bakit ba?
roshner@4:24 AM
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We were supposed to take the test last Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. But because we need to train for the EDDIS, we were excused(not exempted) from taking the test. I could be taking that for granted, as a blessing, but it's the other way around. There were times when I wished that I was sitting with my classmates and taking the tests, with blood rushing through my nose. And there were also times where I thank God for letting me sit in the library, comfortable. But it's all the same. Both would cause me excruciating headaches and creases on the forehead. You might think editorial cartooning is way easier than writing news, features and editorials. But wrong. Super wrong. My brain cells are tormented every time I think of an idea that would convey the topic I was assigned to. And what's not good, is that instead of improving, it's like I am declining. Slowly. Maybe I am being too pessimistic but if you were in my situation. You would think every line you draw and every face you sketch would have something to be criticized about. Out of the five drawings I made, only one is approved to be very good. But "but's" won't be out of the picture. Our adviser said that all the writers are improving a lot. They have developed their skills. I was pressured to do better but I don't know what's my problem. Hindi ako siguro ganoon kagaling mag-isip. When I looked at the editorial cartoons of Rene A. Aranda, I was really awed by his creativity. Everything is simple. When you look at the picture kita mo na agad yung meaning. And that factor is what my drawings lack. Some of it. Hay. I really need all the luck I could get from the world. Kung meron lang sa Divisoria..bumili na sana ako..
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Have you ever came accross with people who are very mapilit? Or those types who want what they want. Gusto sila masusunod? Nakakaasar diba? If you're telling me, these people are spoiled bratts, llok again. I think they are worst. Mas nakakairita. Mas nakakaasar. Mas nakakapangitngit ng ngipin. Grr as in super grr talaga. I met someone like that and I was really pissed off. I won't mention the name for that person's sake. Whenever that person suggests something or opens an idea, gusto niya masusunod and if not? God bless you. That person will be looking daggers at you. Umilag ka na. When she asks a question and hindi mo sinagot she will ask again until you answer. Leche talaga kapag ganon. Asaaar! Siya ang pinakastubborn sa lahat ng stubborn! Argh! Ewan. Nagtitimpi na lang ang bunganga ko whenever that person shows that kind of attitude. Baka magcause pa ako ng WWIII. May mga nagsabi na ring ganun siya. Napapansin nila. But what we can do? Isugod siya sa psychologist? Sama ko no? Eh asar eh! Pero someone got the guts from the heavens para makipagtalo sa kanya. She will really answer back ang kokontrahin niya. Irapan silang dalawa. Electricity would be hovering above their heads. What really surprises me is nagbago na ung girl na yun. She's a friend of mine actually. Before, if there were arguements, tameme lang siya. She would even be the peacemaker. Pero ngayon, grabe. She really changed. Dala siguro ng resectioning. Nahalo na kasi kaming mga cream section. But she still has her goody-girl side. Hindi naman siya super warfreak. Mas mataray pa nga ako sa kanya kung tutuuisin pero kalog na talaga pagkataray niya. And nakakatuwa lalo na nung kinwento ko sa isa pang friend. He said, "Sira talaga yun." Which is true naman. She has been a sanely crazy person. Magulo ba? As for the other one, let lightning strike.
roshner@3:44 AM
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Sunday, October 15, 2006
Would I tell something about myself? Ano kaya maisulat? Hmm..
Ah!
My one-month suspension sa Glee Club..
But first..I have to tell my tale..Haha..corny..
Basta un..
I'm Lean(Leyan-not my real name). A born Bulakeña. Fifteen years of age. Turning sixteen at November 11. I study at St. Paul College of Bocaue and on my last year in High School. I'm not that great when I was in my first and second year. You can sort me out as a wall flower, except at times when I embarrass myself in front of the school body. By third year, I joined Glee Club and reagained my talent in singing. Kase nung grade school ako Glee Club ako and I even joined MADICSA twice. But when I entered High School, nagstop ako. Pero yun nga, nung third year I tried and fortunately, ayun. Natanggap ako. I dedicated myself to Glee Club. I really love that club. People there are my second family na. Now, as a fourth year student, I never imagined that I would join EDDIS. It is an honor actually. And a curse at the same time. Because with EDDIS comes Paulinian Prism, the school's paper. And of course, if you are an EDDIS participant, you're already considered as a staffer of the paper.
And that's the main reason why I was suspended for a month. Hindi kasi ako naka-attend ng isang important occasion wherein the Glee Club is invited to sing in St. Martin of Tours Parish in Bocaue because of the Living Rosary. Other school choirs were also invited. And that is my very first time not to attend an activity of Glee Club. Grabe. We were officially suspended by Sir Al(our moderator) on a practice. We were told beforehand that we were suspended pero we still tried, thinking it is a test by Sir Al. Then nung nandon na kame, we were really anxious about what will Sir Al say. Nung nandun na, he made an intro and eventually, he came to the point na pinapaalis na niya kame sa room. Not in a harsh way though. "Magpahinga muna kayo ng one month". The very next day may activity sa school. Kakanta kame. I sated at the bleachers and watched them sing, without me. The feeling was different. Very different. I even try not to look pero mahirap. Grabe. "See you on November 10." Sabi pa ni Sir. And nice. Birthday ko the next day. Haha. I reall took it in the heart. Pero I found it to be a blessing in disguise. At least, I can focus on Pauli-Prism and EDDIS. Good luck to me.
Well, I have to make my blog pleasant for human eyes.
Haha.
roshner@4:28 AM
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Saturday, October 14, 2006
Diction problems.
Yup. I do have one. But not that worse that I actually speak alien language. Hello? I am a born orator and extempo-girl. Haha. As if. But I can't take away the fact I do have an edge in speaking English. I have that New York accent. And maybe that caused my sudden changes in speaking Tagalog. I stress on vowels making me look I am a Bisaya. That's the diction problem.
For example, I say "Mcdo po" instead of "Mcdu po." My friends laugh at me whenever I do but I can't stop myself. Is it my fault that I became too clingy in the rules of vowels and speech? Another is "Kukuhanin ko ang bAg ko." I stressed on the "bag" but it should be on the "ko". I hope you're getting it.
Well I've got other problems more than diction could bring. I have the EDDIS II(schools' press conference), semestral clearances, Periodic Tests, financial obligations with the school, all of it tailing my back. You can stick them to me and make a new shadow. God I hate being a Senior. But what's life without these teeth-gritting challenges?
EDDIS II
It is a press conference initiated by DepEd wherein all campus journalists of different schools all over the country compete. It was my first time to join and luckily I passed the district level and stepped onto the Division Level which will be held at Calumpit, Bulacan. I bagged the 8th place in Editorial Cartooning for Filipino. I was really surprised. Kung nakita niyo lang akong nagwawala sa saya, with all the eyes of other alien journalists behind my back. And now, we are preparing because it will be held next week on Wednesday and Thursday. Good luck to us. And if luck is diamond, we would have been endowed ith charcoals, all under pressure.
Semestral Clearances
It is a hell-sent piece of paper wherein students are asked for the signatures of their teachers. And these teachers will only sign if you fulfilled their requirements. Not only a hell-sent piece of shit but also a main ingredient for brewing chaos all over the school. Libraries were stripped of their usual silence and the faculty room swelled with students. That time, I was in the library drawing about the given topic of our coach. And my clearance looks really neat. two to three signatures looked lonely inside. Good thing, the contestants Periodic Tests were moved to another schedule. The days intended for review are replaced with trainings. I even slept at the computer laboratory of our school. I slept at 3:30 AM and woke up at 8:00AM. Eye bags again are feasting on my eyes. Nice.
I am on the verge of dropping out and failing everything. But future restricts me from doing so. Damn it. Bakit ba kasi my future pa? Hindi ba pwedeng present na lang? Ha? Ano daw? Of course we can't have today on don't have tomorrow. If ever that would happen... no it won't. Cause and effect. Pero gusto ko. Haha. Not anymore. Katakot. Fickle-mided din ako no?Haha...
Magma-Mcdo na lang ako.
roshner@12:14 AM
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Friday, October 13, 2006
I deleted my last three good-for-nothing blogs full of babbles, babbles and babbles. Now, with a new blog, I will still gibber but maybe with more sense. Haha. And to think I am a person of behaved insanity.
Bakit nga ba ako magba-blog ulit?
Nothing. Nakakatuwa kase magsulat gamit ung keyboard. It's strenuous to write with my angel-carved hands. Imagine all the callos I would be getting. Masaya din kase na magsulat at isambulat sa Internet ang mga kababalaghang nangyayari sa buhay kong nalunod na sa karimlan(As if anyone is reading this right now).
Influence na rin ni Utakgago. Haha. Saya mo na naman. Another hobby din siguro. Kapag wala na akong magawa sa mundo. Para rin mapigilan ko na lang ang pagpapatiwakal. Harsh? No. Normal.
Kidding!
Dahil nakakatamad na mag-intro titigilan ko na. Wait na lang for my next post.
roshner@11:05 PM
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